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Anger Boiled Over

I am not afraid; you no longer scare me. Once so terrified of you, I spent hours scouring the Internet desperately trying to find your new address, license plate number, and make and model of your latest car. Not anymore. You've had your way with my emotions for the last time. Though not physically raped,… Continue reading Anger Boiled Over

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When Nothing is Enough

Pingback: https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/meaningless/ Tearfully watching the old VHS she couldn't bring herself to believe what she knew was true.              So full of smiling faces, boisterous laughter, tearful toasts, and well wishes she tortured herself wondering                What What Wrong? Was she not enough? Had she let herself… Continue reading When Nothing is Enough

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Just Incase

"Please make sure he's in the middle." "Why?" "It's the safest place." "Seriously?" "Well that's what all the experts say." "But we have dual side curtain airbags and reaching in the middle of the truck is a pain in the ass." "Can't you ever just do what I ask?" "You're gonna push me on this… Continue reading Just Incase

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Learning to Overcome

Pingback: https://tomboyforlife.wordpress.com/2017/03/02/always-in-doubt/ The Daily Post: https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/doubt/ During my thirty-three years of living, doubt and I have become closer companions than I care to acknowledge. Never one to make a clear, executive, or precise decision, I have long been plagued by doubt and second guessing myself. As a student I anxiously worried if my school work was good enough.… Continue reading Learning to Overcome

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Comfort in Solitude

  As the sun shines brightly, the birds chirp happily, and everyone seems bright-eyed, and, ready to face the day that awaits them. Not me thought. Immediately upon the dreaded alarm clock going off, I pull my down comforter over my head, desperately attempting the alarm clock to grant me just one more moment of solitude. Immediately paralyzed with both… Continue reading Comfort in Solitude

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Remembering

Five years ago today I drunkenly and selfishly sat in shock and denial. I couldn't function, had no motivation to try to function, and was as close to giving up as I've ever been. The next few days were all a blur. All I really remember is the soul crushing, almost numbing pain I felt… Continue reading Remembering

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Finding Freedom in Forgiveness

A college graduate, a graduate student, married, and a new mother by 24 one could easily say I had a full plate. Madly in love with both my son and my husband, and fortunate enough to be a stay-at-home-mom, I was in love with my life, or what I perceived to be my life. My husband… Continue reading Finding Freedom in Forgiveness

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The Gift of Death

Around two o'clock in the morning I was awoken by a call from my grandmother that changed everything. I knew it was coming, my grandfather had been on hospice for a week, but nothing could’ve prepared me for the deep grief that instantly took my mind, body, heart, and soul hostage. I was surprised to… Continue reading The Gift of Death

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Reaching for Great Expectations- https://manamaray.wordpress.com/2015/06/24/great-expectations-or-not/

An admitted compulsive overachiever, I have spent the better part of my 32 years reaching for greatness. Not just "my greatness," but ultimate greatness. For as long as I can remember I have pushed myself to be the absolute best at every endeavor I've dared take on. Whether school, work, sports, and later marriage and… Continue reading Reaching for Great Expectations- https://manamaray.wordpress.com/2015/06/24/great-expectations-or-not/