Community Pool · Family Dynamics · Introspection · Paternal Abandonment · Peace · poetry · Uncategorized

Broken No Longer

“I owe you an apology, at the very least.”

That’s what he wrote, that’s all the liquid courage would allow him to admit.

Obsessively reading and re-reading the email, I couldn’t get past that one line,

“I owe you an apology, at the very least.”

“At the very least” was perhaps the most puzzling part.

Pondering the line I wondered what he thought his apology and whatever else the “very least” could possibly accomplish?

Way past an apology, he could never give me back my

Childhood

or

Innocence

or

Self Worth

or

Sense of Stability

that he had highjacked from me so many years earlier.

“At the very least” he owed me nothing more than freedom.

Freedom from the

Pain

and

Abandonment

and

Betryal

and

Broken Heart

bestoed upon the little girl I was  like a hammer to a delicate glass table; shattering all hope that maybe this time he would stay and keep just one promise.

Hitting “delete” on that unsolicited email

Delivered me to Freedom, Forever.

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