As the moon wakes and the sun sleeps,
I lay awake wondering what the day left
Send that email?
Return that call?
Mail that check?
Perhaps it’s all been finished, perhaps it remains
Night and darkness have taken over now, erasing all evidence of daylight.
With the darkness comes deep doubt, doubt so deeply penetrating I fear I may never escape it.
I begin to wonder if I’m the one who’s Unfinished?
Reminding myself that
I successfully earned my college degree
I’m happily married
and that I’m
Successfully raising a happy, healthy child
Brings me no relief.
The midnight hour mentally torments me as I wonder how I’ve made it this far all the while being so